well there is a reason why it hasnt been updated welll…… its cause i forgot how to log in lols so for the moment its all i got lols. not much to say atm. its time to go back to uni and all. so its time for sleeping at uni once again sigh. anyway next post will be on on my trip to tokyo and malaysia just cause lasy to do now so will do laters kkk
so yeah as the title says bday party. well im trying to organize my 21st and im realizing that its a lot more trouble than i thought. first things first where is it going to be? what time? what date? once thats all worked out the big problem who to invite? well i jsut did and i invited what 60 70 people…….. and im realised and hoping that half of then dun show up or say they cant come cause like then i can invite more. and the other problem is that i dunno if i can fit them all. like bro managed to fit what 60 70 people for his bday. but like with 60 or 70 people there are the partners. mind u this is 60 or 70 people without the hs friends. yeah i know its kinda bad but i didnt know what to do. so what im thinking is having another one with my hs friends when i get back from tokyo. have a second party thats a christmas party also. with them. hopefully that works out ok. i really wnat to have everyone together but if it cant be done it cant be done.
ohh what else ohh money changers. i cant find a good rate for money changing. like chaddy city they all have similar rates. and people say there city there are better rates. lies i tell u lies its not better rates its the same.
well to day was wierd. i woke up on time even though my alarms didnt go off. then at uni i had class and had this awesome idea for my folio so yeah have to get started on that. anyways i spent a ton of money today. i bout 6 copic markers and a pack of 20 or so pens and that cost me $70 it was expensive sigh but well worth it. and now im planning to get a laptop either today or tomorrow. hopefully i will get it still not sure about it cause dad dun really want me to get one since i only got my desktop this year or end of last year cant quite remember anyway. yeah dad sint too keen on me getting one so hopefully i can convert him hehe.
well the randomness was that my phone has two speakers k. and one of them stopped working. so like i could call people and still talk to them but when people call me i dun have a ring tone or my alarms dun go off. like the speaker phone speaker wasnt working. anyway i got celine to call my phone to check that i could recieve calls and talk to them. anyway half way through the ringing it started working again and i was …………… what the….. like the call was comign through but the phone was just vibrating. no sound so it was like it was on silent. so yeah it was like silent just vibrating and then yeah it starts working…. it was weird i think there is a loose wire in my phone which cant be good but well cant be helped im not opening up my phone just for that.
so yeah that was the random and the money spending sigh too much to happen
woots new post hehe. wellll today i got up late. not too surprising seeing it was me. but anyway went to monash to study wid Ming today. not Ming from RMIT but ming from monash, if that makes sense. anyway i studied sooo much today i had like what 4 or 5 hours of straight work. it surprised me that i could sit there for that long wid out a com and just write stuff. i mean wahhhhhhhhhh who sits there reading and writing for like 5 hours straight wid out soem form of distraction like msn, music, game. or something. it was wierd. anyway hope i can keep it up every week i think we were going to study every week but not sure atm. next week will be at my uni i think cause i have to make models and like it takes ages to take them into uni and make anyway should be ok.
what else…….. ohh u know how i was studying so much? well my bro being tired decided to come and annoy me saying he was so tired that he couldnt take the bus back by himself. sigh … do u know how much work i got done once he came………… zilch grrrr i wanted to study but he comes along and i cant do work…………….. grrrr meh was fun saying that it was his fault hehehe
thats it for todays post bai bia peoples
well the past few days haven’t posted. lets see what happened…
friday….. i had cell and it was good at Amy and Derick’s place. the strange thing about it was… saw like 3 or 4 crashes in the one day. nearly all of them were along princes highway. it was so freaky seeing like so many crashes on the one day. on top of that we were talking about mever knowing when it was your last day and like…… seeing all thoes crashes makes your think. What if it was my last day? what have i got to show for myself? Is this how i want people to remember me by? i dunno it really freaked me out. oen of the crashes was really bad also. the car was like flipped over on its top and it took up like nearly all of the lanes along princes highway. i think the car took out a tree also. man that was a freaky drive.
sat . not much happened on sat had work and work and work so that was ok. what happened on sunday not much stayed at home did……. hw……… well gamed… lols wanted to do hw but got distracted. so not much happened that day either.
monday had work again lots of work and work got of early cause was doing stocktake and like finished early. there are so many cool watches at work now i want them allll. but their like 1k each and im like T.T its not fair i want my pay to be higher then i can buy more and then i get more money cause i make comission lols. but like really there are some really cool watches at work now. we got like 6 new brands. RW, burbury, zodiac, swarovski, kenneth cole, skargen. man i want so many of them. this is ontop of the watches from tissot, longines, citizen and seiko that i want. sigh work there is so much i want to buy now. and their all watches. oh and one ring but have to find out if they can get it in my size first. hehehe
hmm today… what happened today not much gamed all day and did hw thats about it lols nothing much to talk about today.
ohhh i found this really cool ebay store. i like want nearly all the clothing from this store sigh………. i need money i cant spend cause of my travels at end of year but i like want all this stuff sigh gahh what am i going to do sigh……..
hmmm well as the title says i feel like being anti social. i dunno really i get up and think lets go to monash and its like…………….. i cbb then just then i was on the forum chat and i just got on but liek i felt wierd i felt like i didnt want to be there. i dun really get it i feel like im becoming an antisocial person. i feel like i go uni then i come home. i stay at home and watch anime read manga then sleep. i go work come home ………. only once in a while i go out wid friends but its like wierd i feel like i dun belong wid them anymore sigh. i dunno anymore. what am i aiming for? who am i? what am i doing? i feel like im loosing myself and how to interact with people nowadays. the only real interaction i have with people is uni, work, church and the ocasional trip to monash. i dunno anymore i just feel so wierd… sigh hope i can work it out.
yo yo today was ………………………….. surprising.
first up i got up late i slept through like 3 separate alarms that have snooze functions and i like turned them of one by one for like an hour without knowing it. so i got to uni late for group work lols. and like had to get most of it done which i did surprisingly. oh then i took the bus home. this is where it gets intresting lols. well i was playing world ends with u again. this time trying to finish it becuase my last one crashed on me. so yeah this time should work. well i realised we got to stud park so i rushed to pack the ds back into my bag and get off the bus. and guess what i had ym phoen on my stomach while i was playing and when i got up the phone fell onto teh ground and didnt notice. so i got off the bus without my phone………… i walk 5 m and reaise its not on me. i rush back to the bus but it leaves just as i reach the back of the bus. theres another bus there so i go ask the driver of that bus about getting my phone back and he’s like its with the other company u need to get in contact with them. so i run home get the phone and call the bus terminal. the guy there is like i’ll call the bus for u and see if its there and give u a call back. he calls back like 20 mins later to tell me that my phone was on the bus and that its a tthe terminal now and i could go pick it up. lucky.
now that was an eventful day. i consider myself really luck as the bus was going back to the terminal not onto caulfield where i doubt i woudl have gotten m y phone back. so yay! i got it back and now can mess around on it still hehe.
@celine yup yupyup i’ll get u a souviner dunno what prob be a key chain or something dunno depends on where i go lols. then again i duno what im going to buy there hehehe
@sandra a rock? why a rock? can i even get a rock through customs? …………… i’ll try get u one but dunno what will happen lols prob loose it before then lols.
ok i finally remembered my blog lols. thing is my life is pretty uneventful. there is like nothign to talk about i go to uni or work then come home and do nothing. not a very exciting life is it? as u can tell from my previous post most of the time i blog is when i want to vent. wich isnt really a good thing because i upset other people and stuff. but meh. well now im going to try to blog normally about every day random things.
lets see first up, for all thoes who dont know im going to tokyo!!! wooots lols. im going from the 20th of nov to the 2nd of dec. its going to be awesome. cant wait for it although studying for liek most of it im going to have like 4 days to see parts of tokyo. there is so much i wnat to see but not enough time. hopefully i can go around and find all that i want. first up im going to shop. thats the first thing im going to do, go to shibuya and shinjiku. then im going to go to akihabara if i have time and take lots of happy snaps of me around there. hopefully i dun get lost and can find my way back to my hotel. lols then theres the fish market which would be awesome then im going to take my piccy in like a jap convi store lols. eat convi store food, vending machine drinks lols. find a wierd vending machine and see what it vends. lols visit lots of places around tokyo hopefully. i really want to go to yokohama and see the international port terminal but its close but far and i dont really have that much time to travel. will have to save it for the next trip. i really want to take aphoto of the 101 building and time square
its liek a must. dunno what else im going to do there will see. hopefully i can have tons of fun lols.
hmm……… daily life whats happened lately………… manifest? well that was awesome loved it. i got a fan girl from that that was funny lols. bought tons of moyashimon hehehe. they are awesome. then not much else to talk about.
my work got renovated so new store looks awesome. though because of the look i feel like i have to dress really nicely so ive been wearing shirts and vests and tie’s like every day lols. which is fun and i think looks cool and nice. i might start wearing it more oftern. minus the tie and prob wear jeans and sneakers instead of slacks and black shoes. now i need to save save save need to save so much lols
dunno what else to say except hw disappear i dun want u u are annoying lols and gl for all thoes who have exams !!!!! ganbate !!
ummm im not sure what to write about here today…….. well today was uni as usual. thing is i came to a realisation. a realisation that im wayyyyyyy to lasy lols. i know i have assignments due and things i need to get done but im just cbb its too much work i’ll do it later. also i’ve found that ive been tired alot of the time now not sure why thought it might be my diet or the ammout of sleep im getting or my mental state. im really not sure any more its strange. i just feel tired all day and theres no reason for it. its like i get up i still feel tired. i wake up a bit but then the rest of the day im still tired. like i feel lethargic the whole time. meh oh well hope its just for a short period of time cause its liek annoying . oh wells
hmm what else oh food lols i was going to try eat healthier but that didnt work out lols. i eat too many lollies and sweet stuff to eat healty and i dun think i can give them up lols. but yeah i want to get fit well be able to run wid out my puffer or swim without it also. hmm i wanna get fit. too much junk food lols.
run run run exercise is good lols
hmm today went to watch wolverine was awesome. soo very awesome. he as a bro, he dies, theres a sex scene lols. jkjk im not going to give a way the plot. awesome show. had so much fun was bros bday. well not really his bday but like went out for his bday on monday. yups went to eat at sakura awesome place to eat but dam expensive. i didn tlook at the price when i ordered…… i ordered shabu shaubu it was ………. $22.50 T.T then i ordered desert it was ……….. $9.50 …………… T.T i had a $30 dollar dinner sniff sniff sniff sniff sniff. i want my $30 backT.T wayy to much for one meal.
anyway. whats wid the title of this post? well i was in the toilet at movies
yes the toilet.
and there were posters saying stuff about depression and bi polar. so i started wondering how i have been feeling lately. and it struck me as kinda wierd i started thinking i was bi polar…….. like mood swings and all. how i seem to have had them all ym life one time happy all of a sudden upset… but then i thought that was normal and crap cause like always a reason for it. but the i saw the depression poster. and that was like ……………………………. sounds so like me. since i have been pretty depressed lately. i know why but no one else does and i dun really care to tell any one atm sorry peoples. i dunno its like randomly i just start feelign depressed thinking about stuff and getting mroe depressed. what am i depressed about? meh lots of stuff. what botheres me? everything well not everything but lots of stuff. but yeah depression its strange at the wierdest fo times it hits u u feel like crap there nothign that makes u feel better and like it dun go away. u pretend that everythign is ok but its not. cause u dun want peopel to worry about u. and its just there. but i wonder how do u grade depression? i mean yeah i feel depressed and all but hwo do u know that u have depression like cronic depression? liek the ones u have to take pills for? sigh i dun really under stand…. oh wells.
i dun want to feel depressed and all just it keeps coming back and bugging me. i get agro or depressed and i cant think strate. its wierd what do i do now? what is my path? is everythign set for me? its odd i know what my path is but then i dunno what my path is. its so confusing. paths are always changing and all things are different.
god set a path for me he has a plan for me and do i follow that plan? atm nto very sure. or nto very closely. but i know its there and i know he’s wating for me to follow that plan. so glad that god is gracious and is willing to wait for me. atm there are a few thigns keeping me sane atm. God, my friends n family, and routine. dunno what i woudl do with out them. sigh so much going through my mind atm that i dunno what im thinking everythign is just bla i dunno whats going on whats happening or whats going to happen….. all i want is to live happy and for god.
one thing thats starting to bug me is do i really know what my feelings are do i really know how i feel. i feel like i dun have nay positive emotions atm. or well not alot of them. i seem to be cynical alot of the time nowadays. i see everythign like that happens in a wierd warped way. my annoyance fuze has like gotten smaller and the tiniest thing can set me off. im nto sure whats happening but i dun like it and it just makes me feel more depresed. sigh dunno what im going to do sigh. all things change and all things are different but do they have to change for the worst? cant they change for the better? hmm i think i’ll stop now im thinking too much again and its stupid really. well im going to go sleep have work tomorrow.
laters peoples
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